Sakit, sendiri...Haduhhh...!!!

Kemaren, seharian tepar!!!
Mungkin gara2 sehari sebelumnya saya minum susu kedelai yang "agak" diragukan kualitas higienitasnya (hayah!)
Sebelum shubuh, bangun dari tidur, perut saya mulai berontak...hohoho...
Setelah menunaikan "panggilan alam"... minum obat. Simptom mereda...
Pagi fitnes bentaran doang, karena, somehow, kok I felt something wrong with my condition, lemes... mungkin dehidrasi... I decided to go home after about 30 minutes workout...
Makin siang... kok tambah demam...
Puyeng....
Dan perut masih belom beres....

Deg!!!! I kinda affraid to get Typhoid fever again! (dua kali saya kena Tipes, dua kali itu juga harus opname!) walah... berabe kalo harus masuk Rumah Sakit, gini hari...
Ke Apotik, beli Paracetamol and Oralit... beli Roti....balsem juga!
Balik rumah, minum oralit dan Paracet... balsem diusap2 di perut... pake Jumpers.... rebahan... tak lupa berdoa...

Sesorean, hujan deres... sambil tiduran ga jelas... nontonin Desperate Housewifes season 2 yang sempet nganggur (DVD dah diserpis).
Malem, demam lumayan baekan...
Alhamdulillah... bisa berangkat kerja...
 
Ni pagi, I think It's getting better...
Alhamdulillah...
Evrything just fine ...
Alhamdulillah!

Time to say Goodbye...

Almost a year....
Surabaya, whatta wacky town...heheh... panas... semrawut... orangnya, hmmm... pandai menggonggong yah! heheh...
Mungkin ga lama lagi saya harus pulang...

Banyak yang sudah terjadi,...happiness... sadness... new people... who come and go!

I fell in love for few times... but always fell as often as it was...
yagh...it's written on my romance journey...

But its okay, I think I'm stronger now...
Everything happened for a purpose...

I'll go home...soon or later...

Wish, ev'rything just gonna be better...
I know it will...

Hatred and Forgiveness....

Minggu pagi, bangun kesiangan, secara malemnya baru midnite-an..."Stardust" (Cool!-Robert De niro...heheheh!)
Anak SMA, telpon...pengin ketemu... huhuhu... tapi, as I said before, rasanya gimana gitu klo ketemuan teh... rasanya meni ga semangat...
Lha wong malem mingguan aja cuek Midnite-an sendiri... kasian yah!

Minggu siang, sambil ngantuk2 baca buku yang baru saya beli... Kappa, tulisan Ryunosuke Akutagawa... (sumpah, pusing!!!!) tau-tau...berita menggelaegar aku terima! halah, lebay! Di TV Pak Harto passed away...inna lillaahi wa inna ilaihi rooji'uun...
Jadi inget ramalan beberapa paranormal waktu itu, ceunah pak harto bakal bisa pulang dulu... Mungkin maksudnya pulang tanpa nyawa kali yagh... bisa ajah peramal mah!

Seharian kemaren sampe ni siang acara tivi tayang berita pemakaman Pak Harto, klo diliat2, kok kasian juga yah...keliatannya teh pak harto tuh orang baek bener...
Sayang, terakhir periode dia jadi presiden, mau2nya dicalonin lagi...
Klo aja dia nolak... pasti jadinya laen...hmmm...tapi sudahlah....

Tadi siang di Trans, waktu Edwin n Susan Bah wawancara Sukmawati Soekarnoputri... weleh... jelas pisan, she hates "Harto"'s Clan so much...
"Saya pribadi tidak akan pernah memaafkan Suharto atas segala yang pernah dilakukan kepada keluarga saya (Bung Karno)"she said, or so (ga inget persisnya gimana)...hohohoh...such hatred!!!

Yagh, manusiawi juga sih kalo ada orang yang suka, cinta, benci, geuleuh...heheheh...
Cuman, kalo diwawancara gitu kok gimana yah...apalagi pas acara pemakaman orang ... hmm....

"Memiliki dendam seperti meminum racun, dan berharap seseorang akan mati", itu kata Oprah... bahasa inggrisnya kumaha yah??? (kekekeke, keur blegug yeuh!)

Yah, mau apa lagi... lagian, soon or later, ev'ryone will die... (and we're living in a very old planet!!!)
Included me...
Mudah2an ajah, at the time when I die... no one wud hate me that way! amiin...

Sombongnya!!!

Belakangan, sering ke warnet, seperti biasa... buka frenster, balesin message klo ada, sambil buka2 fsnya orang2 yang mampir nglirik (n pasti kaciwa berat, soalnya gw private...heheh)
Buka Multiply, kadang ngeblog kalo lagi ada uneg2... kebanyakan sih kalo lagi sedih, kangen, en, feeling yang menye-menye gitu lah...wkekekekek
Meanwhile, iseng2 chatting... pake nick yang mungkin "promosi" bangettt...
Kadang, klo lagi rame,...banyak juga yang nge-pvt an...
Biasa... asl/stat/pic...

Yah, ada yang ngajak ngobrol2...
Tapi, ga jarang... langsung tanya t/b??? mo ml gak???...wew....

Mungkin pic gue rada2 slutty yah?...

Tapi, ada juga yang ngajak ketemuan...
Cuman... belakangan, rada ga mood kalo diajak ketemuan teh, rasanya gak semangat ajah, kadang ga enak juga... beberapa orang yang pernah gue temuin, kadang suka sms ngajak jalan lagi...
Bukannya ga mau, tapi...ya itu deh... rasanya ga semangat...

Since gw selalu kaciwa tiap ketemu orang yang gw suka...
jadi agak numb,
Dan kayaknya, udah mulai banyak orang yang nganggep gw sombong...
Yah.... sudahlah...!!!

tepat sebulan....

Starbucks TP Surabaya, 24 Desember 2007
Sesaat sebelum maghrib, I met him...
First impression, hmm... quite different from what I thought before...

A cozy sofa, a cup of hot cappucino, nice conversation...with some laughing...
I still remember that he bought "Rihanna"'s album... (ella..ella...ella!!!)
A cup of ice cream... (baru nyadar, klo es krim yang gw pesen kayaknya pake rhum...wew... pait! )
But we couldnt spend more time, coz he had to go to a Xmas dinner with his family, and I had to go to work too...
He considered that he had such a nice conversation with me...(hmmm...something grew inside my heart...)

TP Surabaya, December 25th 2007...
We met again, after he bought a shirt (maybe for his new year party)...
Another cup of coffee at Starbucks...
"National Treasure"-Nicholas Cage (not bad movie!)....and dinner at sushi resto (totally brand new taste for my tongue! )

But, then again, we couldnt spend the night, since I had to work at nite...

Friday, December 28th... he flew away...
I couldnt even give him a hug or a kiss goodbye...
I'd bought a gift... but there was no opportunity for me to give it to him...
Until now, it's still wrapped and laid there...in my room...

Now, exactly a month from the first time I met him...
To be honest, i'm still missing him so much...
And wondering, will I ever meet him up again, someday?

But then, I realize that... I just cant hope too much...
maybe this is the time for me to try... forgetting him...
It wont be easy...and so much misery...

Some regrets...
Why didnt I hold his hand when we watch the movie....
Why didnt I hug him....
Why didnt I kiss him....

"Maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have...
Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have....

Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time

But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind" (Michael Buble)